Yesterday was my dear sister Elva's birthday. Birthdays are a big deal for me, an opportunity to celebrate ourselves and our life, and the life of each and everyone who makes who we are. Elva is a very special person, very well portrayed in a film that our niece Sofía made, which I recommend to everyone: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=bnHaQRD1ljU....
Did you ever feel, whenever you were about to tell something, that ideas and events were jamming up in your head, everything becoming a block that is stuck without an order, a structure, a sequence to get out? This is how I feel now and, interestingly, this is also how I have felt for the past two months, mentally and...
When they told me I had to have surgery for the third time, they explained that it would be a simple procedure, such as operating hemorrhoids, although those who have undergone this intervention know that it may be simple for surgeons but perhaps not so much for patients. I wanted to go to the operating room willingly but I was...
I previously spoke about my trip to Menorca as perfect with its imperfections. Not all the moments there were good but that story is definitely worth it. Looking back I can draw exactly the same conclusion about my life, and even about myself; despite certain imperfections but also due to those imperfections, these stories shine. In recent times...
I've said earlier that "I've been to Hell, returned and went back again". Fortunately I did not linger there and I am not there now. I may go back, I will probably go back, and then the thought that will give me most hope is that it shall pass. In an effort to describe for you, reader, what my personal...
What shape does despair take for me? It does not have to do with the fear of death, which I'm pretty aware it's going to happen sooner or later. I faced the certainty of death and dying two other times in my life and it brought me over the edge the first time because I did not fully understand that...
I followed my guiding light even though I was not able to see it at times. I underwent surgery, maybe the most feared one in my whole life. I trusted my doctors, I trusted life. I trusted once again my army of...
I have been away from this blog for three months. Last time I said I was going to write fictional stories to be better able to speak to the heart from the heart. However, many things happened during these past three months that make me want to spill them over as they were: real, tangible, useful. No fiction yet. Of...
A new age begins today. It is not because the day I am writing this it is the first day of Spring in the Northern hemisphere, although maybe also for that reason, but mostly because any moment is actually a beginning and right now, due to many different reasons, I am very aware of this possibility.
Today has been challenging... I had a conversation with my brother's brother in law (is there not a better way to say that?). He had years ago the same type of cancer, same surgical procedure, same ileostomy and bag. He also had the second reconstructive surgery that I am awaiting as we speak. His news about the time after that...
